Since I have no idea who my readership is, it is sometimes makes it easier to send a blog out into blogosphere, without expecting a response(I would love a response). It is kind of like journaling with an occasional interaction. So, being the introvert that I am, I have been contemplating the fact that God is using my child's learning disabilities as sanctification for me. However, I am failing. The fruit of the spirit is certainly not being displayed. I fight hourly for patience, kindness in my words, love for my child, joy where God has us, faithfulness and endurance, gentleness with words and actions, and the overarching theme through which all of these are displayed- self-control. As I observe friends who have similar struggles with their children, it seems that their kids know their Mom is "on their team." I have to verbalize that outloud that I am on her team, not so much for her benefit, but for mine. How quickly I forget. And yet, now I picture God saying, "I am on your team, Heather." I act like an orphan, rejected and alone and yet I am God's adopted child. The God who never lacks self-control or love, and all that entails. In remembering that I am on God's team, then I should remember that God has not left ME out all alone and unable to fend for herself as she and I navigate through these LDs. God will use all of these LDs for our good and His glory- now and eternally.
OK, the pep talk is over. Usually I map all this out on my giant wipe-board in my bedroom, but today opted for something different. Maybe including a little accountability. Where are you needing to not act like an orphan in disbelief, and have accountability?